Woo Hoo!!  I just started my new position yesterday at Bethel World Outreach Center.  Lots to be thankful for and excited about just not much time.  Will write more later...hopefully!

AGAIN, it's been awhile since my last entry.   I was looking through some old writings from last year and came accross this one.  I just thought it is perfect for this season of my life.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

There is a time for everything,

And a season for every activity under heaven:

A time to be born and a time to die,

A time to plant and a time to uproot,

A time to kill and a time to heal,

A time to tear down and a time to build,

A time to weep and a time to laugh,

A time to mourn and a time to dance,

A time to scatter stones and a time to gather  them,

A time to embrace and a time to refrain,

A time to search and a time to give up,

A time to keep and a time to throw away,

A time to tear and a time to mend,

A time to be silent and a time to speak,

A time to love and a time to hate,

A time for war and a time for peace.

CHANGE.  Change is one word that triggers a whole world of emotions.  To list a few: fear, anxiety, worry, sadness, stress and confusion.  However, on the flip side change can bring: excitement, anticipation, expectation, happiness, peace and joy.  It’s all a matter of what’s changing and how that change effects your life…or rather, how you allow it to effect your life.

Recently I was faced with, what I consider, a major change in my personal life.  Most people would have gladly welcomed this particular change with open arms.  But, I have never liked change, so I didn’t accept it very well.  I felt 100% out of control and for those that know me, you know I don’t enjoy feeling out of control.  For the first week or so I cried all the time.  Forget about prayer…I was too busy thinking and crying…letting the change become bigger than it actually was.  One night I was visiting a friend and she asked was how I was doing.  Simple enough question, right?  No.   Long story short, the tears started flowing and she found herself smack dab in the middle of a counseling session.  (Thank God for good friends!)  After listening to my WHOLE story (patience is a virtue) she only had one major thing to say.  She said that as long as my fear and anxiety don’t outweigh my faith in God, my faith that God will see me though, than I’m okay.  The minute it starts to outweigh that faith, I’m in trouble.  Those words cut straight to my heart  and settle there.  I left that night feeling so relieved.  She’s right, you know.  If I loose sight of God’s sovereignty and His ability to see me through anything…what hope do I have?  Change is all part of God’s master plan for our lives.   Change challenges our faith and accepting change causes us to stretch.

Ecclesiastes 3:11 says this:

He has made everything beautiful in its time.  He has also set eternitiy in the hearts of men; yet they cannont fathom what God has done from beginning to end.

Though I’m still not fond of change, I have learned to accept it.  I understand that God has my best in mind…always.  That He knows the beginning from the ending and everything that goes in between.  So when I start to feel overwhelmed by all the changes going on around me I just remember that God is BIG, He knows exactly what He’s doing and knows how it will all turn out.

Thanks friends!!

I know it's been a LONG while since I've written.  So there's a lot to get caught up on. 

I'm temping today (and for the next however long) for the previously mentioned PR company.  They liked me so well that they asked the temp agency specifically for me.  That's a good thing...that's a God thing.

As I also mentioned before, there are many changes happening in my life.  The most prevelant is that I'm learning more each day to trust God and to really seek Him.  Just when I think I'm really trusting Him with every area of my life He reveals another thing that I have to trust Him in and for.  It's amazing.  

A few nights ago I was reading Psalm the other night specifically Psalm 66:16-20.  This is what it says:
¹⁶ Come and listen, all you who fear God; let me tell you what he has done for me. 
¹⁷ I cried out to him with my mouth; his praise was on my tongue.  
¹⁸ If I had cherished sin in my heart, the Lord would not have listened; 
¹⁹ but God has surely listened and heard my voice in prayer. 
²⁰ Praise be to God, who has not rejected my prayer or withheld his love from me!

Verse 17 really caught my attention.  "I cried to him with my mouth; his praise was on my tongue."  I thought, "that's it!".  I get it now.  I may be going through a season filled with unforseen circumstances BUT...big BUT...I WILL...I CHOOSE to praise God through the circumstances...through the changes.  This doesn't mean that things won't hurt or feel uncomfortable...it means that what I'm going through doesn't change the goodness of God.  He is still great, mighty, just, holy, sovergn...the list can just keep going.  God is God and no matter what is happening around us...He is in control.

Just food for thought.

Currently Reading God's Leading Lady: Out of the Shadows and into the Light By T. D. Jakes see related

So it's Friday afternoon  and I'm finishing up my temp position for the week.  I got done a few hours early but they have asked me to "hang out" for awhile so they can make sure they don't need me for anything else.   It's good to be working and on somewhat of a schedule.  Who knows what next week will hold...but I'm ready to find out!! 

Just heard from my temp agency...I have work through the end of this week!!  Thank you Lord!